I've never felt like this before.

I might need to call one of those crisis phonelines or something.

edit: I feel like such an emo kid. I pussed out of calling anyone. Talked to a friend online, got high with my roommates, had a few cigarettes. I am about to eat little debbies and try to fall asleep high.

God, I hope that typing this and making an ass of myself by admittance, I realize what a fucked up thing it is that I do to myself.