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I'm picking up where I left off.

This is a picture of me. I am stoned to prevent me from being able to feel the lowest of the low swings in my M/D cycle that I have ever experience. I cut HELP into the back of my hand with an exacto knife. And but cut, I mean scratched, because let's be honest- I'm too much of a pussy to actually do anything. I'm pretty embarassed about it. I'm also ashamed of myself. I'm posting this because I'm trying not to lie about myself, hoping that if I have an accurate picture of myself, then maybe I'll be something interesting to look at.

I do want to claify that this is not a cry for help. I don't want anyone who reads these things to feel burdened with the thought that they have to reach out and help someone suffering, because I'll be alright. I know I will be. I could never cause myself serious harm, and I am not alone- I have people I can talk to. I just don't want to.

Maybe this is me talking to myself? I don't know. God, what an emo kid.