Got subpoena'd today. Was hoping that I might just be able to provide a deposition, but I will have to be cross-examined, sworn in and all that jazz. This is a nightmare that I was hoping was gone, but hopefully this will be the nail in the coffin on the issue. The most stressful thing is that I'll have to be in the same room as that... thing that did this to my mother. I've been warned by the District Attorney (who is prosecuting the case, no less) that eyeball's attorney is well known for winning his cases by discrediting the witnesses, the police and basically anyone bringing charges against his client. They warned me that he's a bully and will try to cut me off, will ask the same question repeatedly until he gets the answer he's looking for, and is quite generally a lovely person.

Also, a cute fellow posted a CL missed connection about me last week. It made me feel pretty special, and maybe I should have left it at that. Of course I contacted him, and we hung out briefly on Friday evening. After Friday I've yet to hear back from him, and I don't expect to. Apparently I don't live up to expectations. -pout-

So life is pretty great right now. Three 'till-midnight shifts a week, in a row. Starting today.

I feel so alone I sat and cried for a minute. At work. I still feel really alone. What am I supposed to even do?