I am frustrated, discouraged and am trying very hard to not project my negative emotions onto those around me. The biggest part of maturation (that I have encountered thus far) has been learning to control my emotions: though I cannot always control the things that happen to me, I can control how I will react to it. Today was difficult for me- one of the sort where no one thing that sucks is terrible enough to be the reason the day is awful, as they all build on each other to create a layer cake of misery. But being able to look at the whole situation even slightly objectively makes me feel, on top of everything else, ashamed at my own frustration. 

A sampling of events of the day include:

- seeing someone I like with their new lover. A reminder that shyness is nice, but shyness will stop you from doing all the things in life you'd like to. 

- getting my logic exam back with more grading pen-marks than I'm used to seeing. Makes me feel stupid for the small mistakes I made (constituting most of my cumulative errors), discouraged as I wasn't as prepared as I thought I was, and annoyed at myself for being unable to be happy with a B. I still have an A- in the class, so I shouldn't be as upset as I am with the results of the exam. But I'm concerned.

- an asshole I once expressed interest in (interest that was spurned, pointedly and repeated beyond the time where the point was gotten) now constantly places himself in my proximity, as if daring me to look at him so he can dickishly reject me again. Just fuck off, man.

- in the crowded lecture hall today for the exam, I had an empty seat on each side of me.

- I've been up since 6AM. 

- I hate everything forever. 

So, while I know my problems aren't real problems and I don't feel like I can express them to anyone, I am also annoyed with myself that I'm having this reaction in the first place.