Sunday, April 27, 2014
I am in an incredibly transitional period right now.
On May 7th I'm graduating from my university after around 6 years and 5 majors. My degree will be in the least useful of all of my majors, but hey man I like art. That doesn't seem to have been all that bad of a decision, as I already have a job lined up! Beginning in June I'm going to be an inside sales representative with a small software development company in Atlanta. I have to graduate, find a place, pack all my shit and move in 1 month.
Part of the background check authorization form I submitted after being hired mentions a drug test. This is, from what I understand, fairly common in the grown up job world. I don't do heroin or meth or anything, but I have been a regular (really really regular) smoker for about 3 years now. Today is my 3rd full day without my crutch and I don't like it at all. GRUMP GRUMP GRUMP. Though the extent to which I have been numbing myself has become apparent and I also don't know how I feel about that. I literally started crying when I discovered that I had forgotten to bring my ID after I had walked the nearly 2 miles to the library. Eating full meals is harder, but I'm assured that I'll normalize eventually.
I find myself with a diminished ability to sit around and do nothing. This is also good I guess, but I'm not to the point where I can like it yet. I don't like anything. I'm full of grump.
Tomorrow I turn in the last academic paper I will ever write (hopefully!) Today I have an 8 hour shift during which time I plan to grind out the rest of this paper. After that? I'm going to watch SO MUCH STAR TREK OH MY JESUS ALL OF IT.
I have less than 1 whole season left of TNG, and I'm in season 3 of DS9. Promised myself I'd wait to finish TNG before continuing DS9 because there are crossover episodes that have spoiled bits of the last season of TNG for me and I can't have that. I knew who Thomas Riker was before I saw him leave Troi a second time. Also I don't like Riker. Anyway.
On May 7th I'm graduating from my university after around 6 years and 5 majors. My degree will be in the least useful of all of my majors, but hey man I like art. That doesn't seem to have been all that bad of a decision, as I already have a job lined up! Beginning in June I'm going to be an inside sales representative with a small software development company in Atlanta. I have to graduate, find a place, pack all my shit and move in 1 month.
Part of the background check authorization form I submitted after being hired mentions a drug test. This is, from what I understand, fairly common in the grown up job world. I don't do heroin or meth or anything, but I have been a regular (really really regular) smoker for about 3 years now. Today is my 3rd full day without my crutch and I don't like it at all. GRUMP GRUMP GRUMP. Though the extent to which I have been numbing myself has become apparent and I also don't know how I feel about that. I literally started crying when I discovered that I had forgotten to bring my ID after I had walked the nearly 2 miles to the library. Eating full meals is harder, but I'm assured that I'll normalize eventually.
I find myself with a diminished ability to sit around and do nothing. This is also good I guess, but I'm not to the point where I can like it yet. I don't like anything. I'm full of grump.
Tomorrow I turn in the last academic paper I will ever write (hopefully!) Today I have an 8 hour shift during which time I plan to grind out the rest of this paper. After that? I'm going to watch SO MUCH STAR TREK OH MY JESUS ALL OF IT.
I have less than 1 whole season left of TNG, and I'm in season 3 of DS9. Promised myself I'd wait to finish TNG before continuing DS9 because there are crossover episodes that have spoiled bits of the last season of TNG for me and I can't have that. I knew who Thomas Riker was before I saw him leave Troi a second time. Also I don't like Riker. Anyway.
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