as I feel entitled to say, surly drunk that I am: bah humbug to loving couples and their happiness. As happy as I'd like to be for all of you, I'd prefer you kept your joy/love to yourselves so that I don't have to fight dry retching in public. Feels a little hateful, but I'm running on an empty tank, I am.

I hate it when things feel more significant for me than for other people. When you finally realize that they don't think about you, it may be the most isolating feeling I could name. Hammers the point home when they get permanently paired off with someone else soon afterwards. Stings bad, but I tried to tell myself I knew what I was getting into with that. Stupid to be sad. Trying to manually override the urge to be melancholy, but I feel profoundly alone in this moment.

I'm so stupid.

Driving around with cancelled registration because you don't have the money to get your title transfer completed is terrifying. 3 weeks and counting.