2024

This year I became someone's mom. Birth was real shitty, as was the immediately proceeding 3 months. But she's not a potato anymore and she's so fun and cute now. 

This year I experienced being the most uncomfortable I have ever been. I experienced pain that left me shaking and crying. I lost myself and am actively trying to figure out who I am again. I experienced ego death. I woke up at 4 am more than half the year. I strengthened relationships and made new ones and survived a lot more than I thought myself capable of. I got back to the gym and learned that the hormone known as relastin made my joints all wobbly and loose and even though it's supposed to go away after 6 months my knees still hurt after leg day. I changed a lot of diapers. I saw Tyler become a dad, which really feels like what he was born to do. I got contacts. 

Nov dec

With another trump presidency about to begin, it's a scary time to mother a young girl. But she doesn't know anything about politics or laws yet. She did learn how to stick out her tongue, and now she won't stop doing it. 

The complete ego death that has been motherhood has been freeing on some level. Now that I no longer have any idea who I am, I can be whoever I feel like. I got contacts, and am learning how to not make faces at people because I can't hide behind glasses. I forgot how fun sunglasses are. Eye makeup is a thing again. I'll be able to get strong as soon as I'm not sick every other week. Christmas with a kid is fun.